I didn't really seek the Lord to be a prophet, and if I knew the pain and the tears that were going to be in my life and the trials that I would have to go through I would never have asked to be one.
Most of the last three years I would have preferred to be dead and in heaven, and of late I had to make a decision that has really hurt, yet this statement by Jesus confirms it was right.
Read on...
I met my first apostle about four years ago.
He was like meeting Jesus himself.
After three days with him, I said to him with tears in my eyes, "I am going to miss you Mutu" He smiled at me and gave a great big laugh and said, "Miss me Matthew, you have Jesus!" This man of God was so powerfully anointed you could listen to him for six hours in the day and then come back for another three hours at night.
Never before had I seen such an anointing on a man, and never before had I met someone in the ministry that wasn't on any salary.
He was able to answer about fifty questions of mine about verses that I didn't think any pastor was right about and which I thought the Holy Spirit had told me the real meaning and I found that I was right.
I was so blessed with this man.
Then one day as he was preaching he said that his own church where his wife and children go each week wouldn't let him preach there.
I asked why and he quoted the title verse of this teaching to me.
For about 16 years I have had two mental illnesses, Bipolar Disorder and schzophrenia, and my mother cannot get it into her head that I know how to manage my illness and she is always on to me when I stay up all night and all the next day.
When I am up at night I am pretty productive and if you look at the publish dates of my articles you will see I am very busy when I put my mind to it.
Four months ago Jesus said to stop ringing my mother as he was going to take me into a new anointing and it was time to finally leave home and stop ringing.
The last four months have been pretty hard for me without her in my life and yet the title is right.
My mother can only see my faults, she cannot conceive the future God has for me even though she has read many of the prophecies over my life.
I have no honor at my mothers house.
I am just a sick mentally ill son who has his head in the clouds and with his mental illness he is thinking that he is going to be someone great and change the world for God.
As my mother, she knows too much about me, but she did admit the first time I preached that she thought it was very good.
She told me that she didn't think my first sermon would be so good.
A true prophet will have to make his reputation with other churches outside of the one that he is in, he will have to have a new family and new sisters and brothers to love him, as the ones that he grew up with will simply think he is a bit intense and a bit mad.
And I tell you when they know you are mentally ill they assume my great insights into the Bible that disagree with what they have been taught by the teachers in their life, come from demons instead of the Holy Spirit.
The life of a prophet might sound like a glamorous job, but a true prophet of the Lord will always be sent by the Lord into a church with a wrong doctrine and He will have to refute what they have been taught for years and call them into repentance.
If you think you want to be one, think again.
I have lost my Son by obeying Jesus.
Now I have lost my mother and father.
And I think it is even going to get tougher than that! Some people ask Jesus for the fire of the anointing and they get upset when the Lord puts them into a refiners fire that will humble them to a point where they can carry such an anointing.
You see, the more humble and meek you are, the more God can trust you with a huge world shaking anointing.
So all you young trainee prophets out there.
Let me warn you, it's going to get hotter and hotter for you and harder and harder for you until you simply stop trying to do things yourself and you let go and let god give you your every step Be Blessed Matthew Robert Payne
Most of the last three years I would have preferred to be dead and in heaven, and of late I had to make a decision that has really hurt, yet this statement by Jesus confirms it was right.
Read on...
I met my first apostle about four years ago.
He was like meeting Jesus himself.
After three days with him, I said to him with tears in my eyes, "I am going to miss you Mutu" He smiled at me and gave a great big laugh and said, "Miss me Matthew, you have Jesus!" This man of God was so powerfully anointed you could listen to him for six hours in the day and then come back for another three hours at night.
Never before had I seen such an anointing on a man, and never before had I met someone in the ministry that wasn't on any salary.
He was able to answer about fifty questions of mine about verses that I didn't think any pastor was right about and which I thought the Holy Spirit had told me the real meaning and I found that I was right.
I was so blessed with this man.
Then one day as he was preaching he said that his own church where his wife and children go each week wouldn't let him preach there.
I asked why and he quoted the title verse of this teaching to me.
For about 16 years I have had two mental illnesses, Bipolar Disorder and schzophrenia, and my mother cannot get it into her head that I know how to manage my illness and she is always on to me when I stay up all night and all the next day.
When I am up at night I am pretty productive and if you look at the publish dates of my articles you will see I am very busy when I put my mind to it.
Four months ago Jesus said to stop ringing my mother as he was going to take me into a new anointing and it was time to finally leave home and stop ringing.
The last four months have been pretty hard for me without her in my life and yet the title is right.
My mother can only see my faults, she cannot conceive the future God has for me even though she has read many of the prophecies over my life.
I have no honor at my mothers house.
I am just a sick mentally ill son who has his head in the clouds and with his mental illness he is thinking that he is going to be someone great and change the world for God.
As my mother, she knows too much about me, but she did admit the first time I preached that she thought it was very good.
She told me that she didn't think my first sermon would be so good.
A true prophet will have to make his reputation with other churches outside of the one that he is in, he will have to have a new family and new sisters and brothers to love him, as the ones that he grew up with will simply think he is a bit intense and a bit mad.
And I tell you when they know you are mentally ill they assume my great insights into the Bible that disagree with what they have been taught by the teachers in their life, come from demons instead of the Holy Spirit.
The life of a prophet might sound like a glamorous job, but a true prophet of the Lord will always be sent by the Lord into a church with a wrong doctrine and He will have to refute what they have been taught for years and call them into repentance.
If you think you want to be one, think again.
I have lost my Son by obeying Jesus.
Now I have lost my mother and father.
And I think it is even going to get tougher than that! Some people ask Jesus for the fire of the anointing and they get upset when the Lord puts them into a refiners fire that will humble them to a point where they can carry such an anointing.
You see, the more humble and meek you are, the more God can trust you with a huge world shaking anointing.
So all you young trainee prophets out there.
Let me warn you, it's going to get hotter and hotter for you and harder and harder for you until you simply stop trying to do things yourself and you let go and let god give you your every step Be Blessed Matthew Robert Payne
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